tomorrow i have my interview to get into art collage,
for my graphic design course and my art design course.
its full time in thebarton.
honestly, the idea of this is scaring the shit out of me, finally something to do with myself rather than sleep and be uninspired all day.
right now im organizing my portfolio like a madbitch and i need to do at least another 6 drawings and 2 sketches tonight until i have anything that remotely resembles me as organized -.-
under pressure.
i want to fast forward my life, from here-on in.
"You never loved me.
now i cannot lie down in that bed,
i cannot lie down in all of those old fears.
i haven't slept,
singe the colors from my glances.
If i was bleeding,
would you tell me?
If i was saying,
would you hear me?
You asked for everything but never loved.
If i was praying,
would you kill me?
you never loved me.
dead.
now i cannot lie down in that bed,
i cannot lie down in all of those old fears.
i haven't slept,
singe the colors from my glances.
If i was bleeding,
would you tell me?
If i was saying,
would you hear me?
You asked for everything but never loved.
If i was praying,
would you kill me?
you never loved me.
dead.
it was only a dream
baby it was only ever you, i knew it wouldn't last. because in the end, its only ever little old me.
empty threats and cigarettes are a cure
little miss narcissist are you done with that mirror?
off with her head,
send the shattered whore home.
off with her head,
send the shattered whore home.
full of all my whispered words
“you dear you are my perfect creature, in a world where everyone else fucks each other over.” whispered the viper as he lazed on a rug atop of a stone cold floor,
the crackling fireplace keeping them warm as the rain poured at the glass outside.
the young girl giggled sleepily and beckoned,
“why do you call me your creature?”
she questioned as she stuffled a yawn and wrapped her arms around her lovers neck.
“because god doesn’t just make humans like you, you gorgeous, are that of legends.”
the viper closed his eyes and leant into the creature holding her close.
he breathed her in deeply, she smelt of sweet musky perfume and slightly of smoke from the warm burning fire burning at their feet.
almost asleep now,
the creature raised her head and looked into the eyes of the viper,
“why do you lay wide awake whilst I sleep soundly in bed?”
the viper kissed her softly on the brow,
“so even whilst you are asleep soaring over the highest cloud, or swimming in the deepest ocean, you know that I will still be here, waiting for you to come back to me.”
the viper wasn’t sure if his lover had heard this last expression of kindness as he heard her breathing grow heavier he knew she had drifted into a deep sleep.
he lifted her onto the bed of satin sheets and silk pillows that they shared and kissed her warm lips goodnight as she barely even stirred.
the crackling fireplace keeping them warm as the rain poured at the glass outside.
the young girl giggled sleepily and beckoned,
“why do you call me your creature?”
she questioned as she stuffled a yawn and wrapped her arms around her lovers neck.
“because god doesn’t just make humans like you, you gorgeous, are that of legends.”
the viper closed his eyes and leant into the creature holding her close.
he breathed her in deeply, she smelt of sweet musky perfume and slightly of smoke from the warm burning fire burning at their feet.
almost asleep now,
the creature raised her head and looked into the eyes of the viper,
“why do you lay wide awake whilst I sleep soundly in bed?”
the viper kissed her softly on the brow,
“so even whilst you are asleep soaring over the highest cloud, or swimming in the deepest ocean, you know that I will still be here, waiting for you to come back to me.”
the viper wasn’t sure if his lover had heard this last expression of kindness as he heard her breathing grow heavier he knew she had drifted into a deep sleep.
he lifted her onto the bed of satin sheets and silk pillows that they shared and kissed her warm lips goodnight as she barely even stirred.
nobodies daughter
& she has her legs wrapped around him
shes got no home.
shes looks at me screaming 'honey'
and he looks so dumb.
why are you staring baby?
this is how its done.
shes got no home.
shes looks at me screaming 'honey'
and he looks so dumb.
why are you staring baby?
this is how its done.
drop dead
i guess some kids are just born with tragedy in their blood.
i try to wash this away,
i wanna cleanse your veins.
i feel the malice in my veins,
my heart swells with hatred in your name.
and when you've got nothing to turn black and blue,
you've still got hell to look forward to.
i will dance on your fucking grave.
oh, when you're blessed with a grave to call your own,
in my mind you'll be six feet closer to your home.
your eulogy will be music to my ears.
we make war so we may live in peace
this is not inspiration,
this is a transparent brain.
im leaving,
and im not taking any of this with me.
perfection is only around my corner.
this is a transparent brain.
im leaving,
and im not taking any of this with me.
perfection is only around my corner.
just live your life a little for me
i need to stop feeling this way when im around you.usually my heart is so flexible it cant break.
but this time when you go, i don't think ill be able to be so heartless.
i have a feeling that im starting to actually have feelings.
"i dont know what to do,
i dont know what to say,
to make you stay, to make you stay.
i feel like this is so surreal, i dont know whats the deal,
wish you could stay, wish you had stayed"
hey ungraceful
miles & miles of regret,
it hasn't happened now, and it wont happen yet.
days and days of perfect sex & bad tv,
i just try to forget.
miles & miles of regret..
it hasn't happened now, and it wont happen yet.
days and days of perfect sex & bad tv,
i just try to forget.
miles & miles of regret..
im afraid there's a hole in my brain.
there is nothing worse in the world than being in a place you despise.
watching everyone go places, do things, grow.
while you just seem to sit back and wish.
you feel like you're trying as hard as you can and its still not getting you anywhere.
though with everyone else, whatever they desire lands right in their laps.
so why cant it be that easy for you?
...why cant it be that easy for me?
watching everyone go places, do things, grow.
while you just seem to sit back and wish.
you feel like you're trying as hard as you can and its still not getting you anywhere.
though with everyone else, whatever they desire lands right in their laps.
so why cant it be that easy for you?
...why cant it be that easy for me?
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