im afraid there's a hole in my brain.

there is nothing worse in the world than being in a place you despise.
watching everyone go places, do things, grow.
while you just seem to sit back and wish.
you feel like you're trying as hard as you can and its still not getting you anywhere.
though with everyone else, whatever they desire lands right in their laps.
so why cant it be that easy for you?
...why cant it be that easy for me?